Why............?

Why do I always end up being hurt? Why does it always have to be this way...? I never learned anything....I let people treat me like dirt! All I wanted was for someone to love me...whoever he is...just as long as he'll love me for me.... I'm not someone who can be used and then thrown out...but why? Why do I let this happen to me over and over again...I just want someone to love me....that is all...............

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If Onlys

If only my mom and dad weren't separated none of this
would've happened...

If only my grandparents haven't died yet, they would fund my college education...

If only I had finished college, I'd have a better job...

If only I could stop thinking of others and putting them before myself, I can truly love myself....

If only I hadn't been stupid enought to love someone so much as to give myself away, I wouldn't be as bitter with life or as jaded with love...

If I could find someone who was always there and for once take care of me......


There are a lot of things that we want to change in our life. But more often than not, we are wrong in thinking that to change how things were done, is the only way to change the future...
the only way we can do that is by changing ourselves...
ask yourself...
..are we ready for the consequences that may result from our actions?

think before you speak..but that is something that i must work on...I'm tactless but at least I kid you not...

If only life were perfect...I would soooo not be here in the first place...
crazy thought but true...

I fervently wish

I fervently wish for the skies
but the rain keeps pouring down
like the stars that fall from above
and in vain I seach for the love
to help me through this life

I fervently wish for the riches of the world
to vanish and never to be found
for only then can one find a true friend
who would always be at your side

I fervently wish for the youth
of which I was deprived of the love of a man
from whom I have been borne
If that happened..I would have been a different person...

I fervently wish for a life that is not mine
only because I am tired....simply too tired to go on...
If only I could ask God to stop the time and rewind it all
I would want my life lived out differently...